National Harana Day <3

First of all, let me just admit that I am completely and utterly addicted to the Sir Chief-Maya love team. They make me feel like it's high school all over again! <3 data-blogger-escaped-br=""> I'm lying here now after a long day at work. All day I was so excited about my daily evening rendezvous with the cutest show on earth. When i saw the teaser last night, i couldn't stop feeling giddy. My best friend at work would always talk to me about the show because she's very well aware that I love it so much!
For the past weeks, our lovebirds haven't been well - they had an ugly argument (and yes, I was so affected that I was crying with Maya for a solid week!)
Fhebe, my friend, and I would discuss this situation as if our life depended on it! Haha! She would say Maya is being too difficult, while I, although I would trade my Reese's peanut butter cups and caramel macchiato to get Sir Chief to smile, was completely on Maya's side. I guess they're just both so effective in their respective roles that I actually caught the mood and the emotions I felt while watching really reached the deepest chambers of my heart (and my tear ducts, too!)
And today!!! The long, agonizing wait is over! That dreaded five-letter word finally rolled off Sir Chief's beautiful lips! *faints*
He not only did the traditional harana while looking intently at Maya (whose hair length suddenly reached Pagudpod from Mindoro!).
I was so affected that I thought I died and lived again when he touched Maya's shoulder and said "I'm sorry". I had my face buried on a pillow while this happened. Well, only because I didn't want my family to panic with me screaming in my room!
I'm so relieved they're finally okay but I'm worried because Maya is still resigning. :'(

I can't wait for it to be Monday already! Thank God for the creative minds behind this show! It's truly a breath of fresh air for my oh-so-stressed self. :)

second thoughts

I'm generally a very conservative person - old-fashioned, relaxed, slow to change. I take things rather slowly - never rushing or wanting to tweak what have been the practice since it began.

I stayed in my first company for eight years. I was clueless when I set foot in that office in 2004. The things that happened in the duration of my stay tested me well. Sure, I've had my moments of shock, denial, and resistance but I've also collected enough cheers, pride, and friendship. When it was announced that I will be included in the list of people to be outsourced, I really felt the world was closing in on me. I was lost and I wasn't sure of what I would do. The only thing certain is that all the habits formed in my eight-year affair with Mr.Moller, Wynsum Plaza, and Emerald Avenue will have to cease - and no, I wasn't ready for it.

Since there wasn't much choice left for me and all the others, I signed a new contract with an IT company. Thinking about it now, I realized the biggest thing i was afraid of - no, make that the ONLY thing I was afraid of is losing a regular source of income. I was so hopeful that things will get better, that I will learn to love what I was tasked to do. I did learn to understand the people around me more. But the constant exposure to negativity is taking a toll on me now. The positive aura I wanted to slowly inject to my peers' system is starting to flutter.

I have indirectly given a hint to the most important team in my life that I want to move out of that work den. Yes, I'm speaking about my family. They are, after all, the biggest reason why I'm working anyway.

I'll be turning thirty in a few months and at night one question keeps me awake - When will I finally start living my life? I hope before the day I hit the big 3-o, I will come to terms with myself and be able to get enough courage to steer towards another direction - the not-so-famous choice this time.

I think I've earned it to finally break the rules I've set for myself and leave, if not all, a chunk of my conventional-self in the past.